haha!! dunno why..but i seem to be in love wif chinese songs at the moment..i think its damn nice!! currently i can even sing one whole song..cool ah!! but quite wierd lah..cuz i burn these songs and when i hear it in the bus, everyone gives me the look..heez!! i guess they think ttz not natural.. but well, for someone like me, i dun see anything wrong lah..haha..i seem to be more interested in the chinese culture than athena..haha..planning to go for conversational chinese lessons after o's..haha..but dunno who will bother to tag along wif me..grow up and marry a rich chinese guy..perfect cross-culture example!!

todae, i woke up at 3.30am to study..so proud of myself..haha.. i actually din go back to sleep.. the whole day in school quite slack lah..mr anthony was trying to motivate us in class..dunno how much it worked..but it helped me reflect on wat i was currently doing..so i need to get rid of all the distractions..haiz...hopefully.. had ss in hall..but personally i prefer the classroom cuz i had leg cramps after that..the best part was the fact that there was no English.. can't believe I'm hating english.. all thanx to seet and her boring lessons where i'm stoning half the time..actually more than that..

went to buy bio tys wif athena after school.. at last!! we finally found the right book..then went to KAP to study...well, we did some productive things since jamee wasn't there..hee..gave some stupid excuse to meet dunno who lah..aiyah..dun care about her..and i think we saw many familiar faces.. haha..even some stupid CI wif 3 of his cadets..they were sitting right beside so we could hear every single thing they said..too bad it was in chinese but i could get bits and pieces of it..they were basically gossiping!! damn sickening!! aiyah, expected lah..its them after all..

oh ya..we going to have a big smash party after o's..the WE is basically me athena jamee and ivy.. since my birthdae is in dec we celebrating then..haha..yea..i'm the lucky one..always.. =)

got back report book..L1R5-20..bad lah..but dunno how come i got 11th position in class.. something happened to everyone i guess..but, hope to do better..much better..like mr anthony said, i have to make my L1R5 at least half of what i've got now!! and yeah!! i have the determination..and i'm goin for it!!

also todae was speech dae..got the best unit cadet award..felt happy and proud of myself but dunno how deserving i am...haiz..it always happens..but thanx to everyone who stood with me in NP..jamee, athena and ivy..ma'am mei moey and evryone else too..=)

haha..i screwed..it seems to be the only word in my vocab..but anywae, i still feel great..the happy happy me..why?? seriously, i dun noe..when i can find out a reason..i'll write it..=)

I dunno lah..but feel so guilty cuz i did badly for both ss and hist.. mr anthony was very dissapointed.. i was crying in class.. i mean its not like i din study or something cuz i studied.. i realli wanted to do well for my paper..it feels so saddening to make someone lose their hope in you.. and my mistakes were stupid.. i could have done much much better.. juz hope i can improve..juz 6 weeks left for prelims..=(

i'm very stressed..feel so pressurised but totally helpless over my situation..i mean wat more can i do?? if only an angel comes and enlightens me..=(

haiz..got back some papers..did badly in everything except e-maths..will post the marks once i get everything..aniwae, i juz hope my L1R5 is below 20..damn..dunno where i'm gonna end up..muz start to work harder..and harder..hmm..tml gettin ss back..anthony already said i did badly..then edwina todae say average msg is 6.4 Wat kinda marks is that!! fuck!! i need big time bucking up..

I love todae!! yea!! haha..k, a very long dae but enjoyed it.. first was CIP..went to jurong point to collect money but only to find that there were other schools there already.. aiyah..stand for so long until got leg pain..11 something we stop doing fund raising and went to eat at Long John's.. they have realli poor service there.. must complain.. then went to cine..take photo..actually not bad lah..me edwina and amanda.. some quite nice..i looked girly for once..haha..then after that went to take neoprints wif athena and jamee.. quite crap lah..juz acting loony half the time.. well, i guess that's not unusual..and then went for MEAN girls..not bad lah..quite farnie actually..haha..the label "plastics".. quite interesting.. and i learnt something new.. Now i noe the meaning of " butter your muffins"..to those who dunno, juz be that way.. after that went to wisma and shop..jamee wanted to go home but we threatened her and made sure she followed us.. quite easy to blackmail her lah actually..haha.. then the stupid girl was telling abt some guy who wanted her no and she din wanna give it to him.. boy, did he look so bad!! disgusting man!! i rather she choose crow to him.. crow a million times better..jamee's a joker..she was scolding me for pronouncing her name funnily..but it sounds nicer to me..i pronounce it like the "jam"[the one used on bread, juz in case you're wondering]..and i love her that way.. Athena, Jameela, Praveena..3 Idiot forever..whether in NP or not..=D

i'm not in the best of mood now.. got back physics paper 2..damn shit..49/80..i nearly fainted.. i think it was my strongest science subject..and mr anthony sort of hinted that i did badly for social studies.. i think i'm realli screwed..die!!

but i still am goin to enjoy my weekends cuz i noe i will have alot of crying to do next week..=( and so to start it off, i have CIP tml..then got to go wif edwina to take grad pics..haha..then go watch mean girls wif jamee and athena...

YAY!!!! examz over at last!! haha.. i can relax now.. well, at least for two daez..need to catch up on my sleeps.. haha..watchin mean girlz tml wif athena and jamee.. i got screwing frm both of them todae..MEAN GIRLS!! hee..i'm gettin lame..aniwae, i dunno when i'll be gettin my papers back..juz hope its later.. and blink 182's I Miss You is stuck in my head!! i've been playing it over and over again..its so old..still i love it..

hmm..quite some time alreadi ah.. aniwae, i think i screwed alot of my exams..chem bio..physics..haha..and a.maths..ok..i noe its no laughing matter but how else am i to do..study so much still of no use..i think i'll juz have to be prepared to get scolding..haiz..