the whole of blogger is written in chinese. and i juz seem to be pressing buttons hoping that i'll land on the correct page. i am maddened by the fact that i can't change the language settings. sigh. anyway, was reading random blogs juz now. and stumbled upon a fren's one. it spurred me to think. who am i to the people around me? most of the times, i see myself being superficial in front of wat i call, acquaintances. portaying a false image. i confirmed it after interpreting my personality graphs. Public Self- Very High I. Personal self- Very Low I. it reflected my inner self so truthfully. with people around you changing so often. now and again, they hurt you. wats true. wats there for me to believe. i feel so used. it tears me everytime people around dispose me like some trash. the emptiness in my heart will never be filled i guess.

was a talking to a fren yesterdae. abt the class. little improvement. and it doesn't help by hearing that some of the guys go for movies secretly.. why do they have to outcast the others..esp the other guys. they form a social circle which they guard so fiercely , trying to hide themselves from reality. its aggravating especially since he holds a position in class. we're going to try something. hopefully, we can get that done.

weary and drained...

i told myself to stop being lazy and blog..my last entry was like so long ago.

there's thousand and one things that i have to do nowdays. how i wish one day had more than 24 hours. maybe i'll be able to manage better. am quite depressed cuz i screwed my physics test. 15/25. its the lowest among my three test. its heartbreaking since i mugged for this test. haiz. moral of the story: dun mug! forget that you have a paper the next day and go to sleep!

bevs running for council. she got thru the interview. if she gets thru the campaign then we have one councillor in sc6. quite cool. oh well..cannot get high during gp anymore since alvin amadeo is long gone. the ne teacher looks like some IMH runaway. she was trying to amuse us wif some very lame jokes. ha..it juz din work.

went to sa on monday for ac sa rugby match.. as usual, ac won wif a big margin. ha..way to go!! got a chance to catch up wif ppl after a long time.. had a mini 4/6 gathering at the track. ha..i miss all of them.. saw suhaila.. i miss her daily whining. ha..larissa, emmeline, joan, van k, van lee, jean, qian li, sarah, hui shan and some others i rmb seeing around before. sighz.. i missed the feeling of being a saint. i felt like i belong there.. at one pt, i even wanted to join in the cheer" saints go marching in" after all i've been singing that for sooo long.. the sa ppl who came to support did a great job..they were overpowering. was quite dissapointed abt the way ac cheered. the councillor nominees were trying to compete wif each other to see who could stand out more. it really turned me off. seriously, i have no good impression abt ac council. they look so fake. oh well. stayed back wif athena till late.. sa toilets were really bad. i wanted to cry cuz the toilet was juz too dirty. ha..maybe i'm spoilt. and we could smell blood from the canteen. realised that it was the sewage overflowing! gross.

ivy e-mailed me yesterday..was very touched. felt like i had neglected her. at least for her, the babes must go out. love you guys!