i know this is wrong. i know i shouldn't be doing this. but sometimes, when just a glimmer of hope lingers, you start wondering. maybe it might happen..

I like,
Where we are,
When we drive,
In your car.
I like,
Where we are;
Here.

Cause our lips,
Can touch,
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
Our lips,
Can touch;
Here.


[Chorus]

Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.



I like,
Where you sleep,
When you sleep,
Next to me.
I like,
Where you sleep;
Here.


Our lips,
Can touch,
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
Cause our lips,
Can touch;
Here.



[Chorus]

Our lips,
Can touch.
Our lips,
Can touch;
Here.



Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers "Hello, I’ve missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your...



Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers “Hello, I miss you quite terribly.''
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Here in your arms
Here in your arms

feel a sudden loss now that i've quit my job. yeah, i did.

though i really hated the job because of the whole idea of going around selling tickets, I guess I did appreciate it in some ways. I mean, suddenly having the ability to talk to a total stranger and just exchange friendly smiles, thats a whole new part of me that i discovered. But i suppose doing a sales and direct marketing sort of job isn't my piece of cake. i tried to improve my performance day after day but i just felt like i hit a new low everytime.

went to see big boss to tell him i was going to quit. dun ask me why, but the pressure of the job just made me cry. in fact, this job has made me pms so much that i have pissed off so many of my frens.. big boss said i was having too many negative thoughts in my head and that i was too egoistic. that i had to humble myself in order to learn. i sorta have to agree with him on the last part abt being egoistic. its my charcter, it has always been such and to suddenly change is way too drastic for me. also, having a bit of ego helps me maintain my dignity. but, i suppose i do have to learn to be more humble. i'll leave this whole topic on humbleness for another day cuz i have quite a bit to say abt that.

big boss told me to try just one more week, but i seriously had had enough. i mean, i was the girl who wanted to quit after day 1 but was convinced to stay for a week. friday was my last working day. by then, i had no more passion, no motivation, no desire. i was simply like a piece of log wandering around aimlessly to sell the tix. dismal perfomance to end my career there but what the heck. i did feel slightly guilty but i had already passed my satuaration limit. JE asked if i wanted to work on sat only so maybe at least make some cash. but i just din have any juice left(if you dun get what i mean, its ok ).. so quit totally instead of changing to part time or anything else.

i kinda feel very sad because the ppl there were really really great. its hard to find ppl who could be so friendly and helpful. they dun really backstab or judge. was like a big happy family. so, its a bit sad to see that all these have to come to an end now that the job is gone. gonna miss JE, she was like my sister-in-crime. Dawn, simply cuz she was an extremely wonderful trainer and a great fren. SM, the uncle killer with overflowing cuteness. yup, everyone else too.. too many to name..=)

so what lies ahead for me? I'm not sure myself. should try finding another job, at least to support myself for the next few months.

work sucks. i hate my job and i feel like just quitting. thing is, i still wan some cash. so, until i get a proper income, i have to continue doing this. actually, i'm right now working at some marketing and advertising company. sounds fun rite. truth is, its just bullshit beneath all the glam. 6 days of work for a miserly pay. fuck, why am i wasting my life like that.

got a call for a tuition offer. at a tuition centre. thats like pretty cool thinking only teachers teach in tuition centres. went for some interview today. hope i get this job, then at least i can do the other one part time.

ha, just a note abt the job i'm doing right now. its quite interesting, suddenly being able to talk to just abt anyone one the streets. but most of the ppl who help me seem to be the young guys. kinda funny cuz some like just help when i smile at them, even though my pitching was super crap. i mean, its harder to concentrate on pitching properly when a cute guy is standing right in front of you, looking into your eyes. worst still, when they are shirtless. haha.. aiy! if only i could just stop working at that min and keep talking to the guy. ah, i really wish!!=D

people, as in colleagues are all pretty nice too.. all either my age or younger. somehow, i seem to be able to connect with almost everyone. i've always thought that is an impossible task. hah, somehow, work is made slightly better with them. doing cheers and having team nights.. quite cool..

their putting sweet november on channel 5 right now. i dun wan to watch it fully cuz i'll start crying for sure. very much cliche, but so wat! its still super sweet. catch it if u haven't!

yay! i got a job. ok, shall not comment on it first. see how it goes..

Ooh

Ooh, ooh

Ooh, ooh



From the minute that you got my attention

I was taken and I have to mention

I was trying not to let it show

But I knew that I wasn't gonna let you go

From the way that you came right to me

Looking all hot with the style that threw me

No one would've ever known it

You would be the one who take this heart and hold it



You got that extraordinary way

Got to be next to ya every single day

You do something that I just can't explain

Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me



Boy, I love you so

Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

Yeah

Do you know it

Boy, I love you so

Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

I just want you to know



You can say anything you want to

No stress 'cause I understand you

We got a vibe you can't define

Want everyone know that boy is mine

We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me

You take me there at times

I feel I lose control

Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding



You got that extraordinary way

Got to be next to ya every single day

You do something that I just can't explain

Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me



Boy, I love you so

Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

Yeah

Can you feel it

Boy, I love you so

Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

I just want you to know



Please know this

I'll always be right here

And you don't have to look

Nowhere else babe

Don't think for a minute

This love will change

Oh you should know that



Boy, I love you so

Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

Yeah

Can you feel it

Boy, I love you so

Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

I just want you to know



Boy, I love you so

Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

Yeah

Can you feel it

Boy, I love you so

Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

I just want you to know

had to get quite a few things done these few days. a string of bad luck as well. not going to talk abt it.

but yeah, i'm having loads of stuff to do in NP right now. beginning of year and so need to get alot of planning done. major revamp to take place soon. kinda excited to see how the unit is going to react to the changes. years of the CIs trying to do something and at last, we have reached a decent understanding with officers and the school. i hope the school cooperates on the long run. we'll have to wait and see..

now, i'm really disturbed. is wentworth miller gay?? it kinda would seem like it since hot guys are often gay. but if this is true, it will be a serious blow to all females worldwide. you see a guy on tv who is sooo bloody hot and guess wat, he's GAY! and that would mean, u cannot dream abt him because there will be no hope of him sleeping beside you when you wake up the next morning!(even if it is a dream!!!) Arrgh!!

so, girls, dun deprive that hottie who's smiling at you from the corner of the bar. just hook up and make out!! because at least then, he wouldn't develop gay tendencies... you can feel proud and saving the man for another girl..







ps. my moral values have not deserted me, though this entry quite makes it look like it. you can choose to disagree, but i don't care!

pretty frustrated right now. tried applying for jobs but it just starts becoming more and more disturbing as I browse through job listings. I see this phrase more than any other phrase: Bilingual in English and Chinese. Its really starting to annoy me. Even though the problem has been here like forever, I think not much is being done about it. I totally understand why such a preference would be required, esp in the case where communication with the older generation would be concerned. So, I'm not talking abt jobs such as customer service and human resource at the very least. However, I don't understand why a data entry clerk in MNCs would require that! or an admin asst. in a bank. Aren't they all supposed to be fuckin educated!!! The only firms that do employ without such restrictions are the usually more established ones.

I've managed to live without discrimination for the major part of my life. well, its mostly because schools i went to were like that. though i was fuckin bullied in st.marg's, it was because of me, my personality and not because i'm indian! in ac, everybody was racist, well racist to practically everyone else including themselves. so, we shit off each other and laugh about it but no hard feelings at the end of the day.

but i'm no idiot. i noe that the world out there isn't like ac or st.marg's. just going home everyday after school gives me a good picture of what i am to face in the near future. Young heartlanders. Its really hard to find ppl who speak english on a regular basis. i noe its because of their culture and the way they were brought up. But at some point, I believe they should understand that the world doesn't only constitute of chinese and that they should fucking learn how to speak good english. sometimes, i think its the govt's fault. Why the heck do we need the Speak Mandarin Campaign when all i hear is chinese when i'm out of school! the only ppl who need such campaigns are the ACS boys. and i can totally understand why. Maybe getting students and teachers to start speaking english in neighbourhood schools might actually work better than that Speak Good English Campaign.

i'm glad i went to ac.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!