i'm surprised i din update for so long. seeing that i've been online most of the while.
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medical checkup at ntu went fine. but i was feeling so distraught after seeing the kind of ppl who were going to acct. most looked like nerdbags with a bad dressing sense. it was so unlike the ppl i've come across in ac or st.marg's. i mean, its not like they weren't nice. they just seemed a little too quiet for my taste. liked they'll be happy being cooped up in their own corner with their own same kind of frens. it makes me so scared thinking how i'm going to include myself among them. i really dun want to be a loner. oh god, i need help.

passed my final theory:) was quite scared cuz i din study for the test, so i took a practice session rite before the test and my good fortune, the questions for the practice and the real thing was quite similar. now i just have to wait for august for my driving prac lessons. sian, so long.

transformers is way above expectations. its serious adrenaline pumping from start to end and with a fairly simple storyline, even the transformer suckers can understand what is goign on. and pretty hilarious as well. a tad bit long and draggy but definitely worth your 8 bucks.

re-read order of phoenix. and going by the movie trailer, i seriously doubt the storyline will be quite the same. it has too much voldemort. kinda funny when there was a scene of voldemort in a suit at hogwarts station. i guess, its just to enhance the entertainment value. and i never expected kingsley shaklebolt to look like some tribal gypsy man. and not black at the very least. tonks looks alrite and luna lovegood doesn't look as loony as expected. oooh..can't wait for it..


going for treetop walk and ndp rehearsal tmr(thanx to cuz). athena's going m'sia and pravz probably packing now. haiz. better get used to it.

someone played a prank on me yesterday. but i dunno who. this guy called me up and said he got my no. from ac and that they were organising some kinda treasure hunt at ngee ann city and that they needed ppl to participate. so darn wierd ah. when i questioned him on details, he kinda lost it. he said was from 8 days mag and i checked it out. no such crap. i still have the handphone no. checked with the usual suspects. negative. but i'll get to the bottom of it!

anyway, i've decide on nbs and union camp.

all the orientation stuff arrived.. spoilt for choice. narrowed down to the nbs camp, union camp and the sports camp. but i can't decide any further cuz there's so little details about the camps. all the phamplets look the same. just group pictures with comments from seniors. doesn't really help since everything is positive. going thru the pictures, i realised that nbs has the most good looking people in the whole of ntu. geez.

my uncle's 60th birthday yesterday. people i din seem to know that much. the occasional hellos during family gatherings and thats it. quite a pity because i seem to have nothing to talk about, even to my cousins whom i have spent hours playing with in the past. everyone seems so different. and i have no words. somehow, it just seems to be me. the one who is so loud around friends but when it comes to her kins, its such a different picture. and i keep thinking maybe 20-30 years down the road, there'll be no gatherings, no festive visits, no chalets, no trips. it'll just be me all alone.

passed evaluation. barely.

found a sudden interest in neopets. i noe what your're thinking. but its fun to play those kid games. not like i might have the time to do this in the future. so all the more, i should live the last of my teenage years to the extreme. rather happy that i'm gymming more often these days. 4.85km in 30 mins. was pretty satisfied. need to hit 5km in 30 mins in case i do sports in ntu. speaking of ntu, i'm filling in my application booklet. can't decide whether to take a new pic or use the one i have. mom was telling me to get a new one despite the current one being only one month old. crazy! and i did catch pirates one more time. depp is just too irresistable. i feel like seeing fantastic four cuz the silver surfer looks pretty cool. and transformer cuz the trailer was cool. hah..

need $$$.

final theory evaluation tmr. din really study but i can't seem to care.

while admiring dear johnny on tv, i couldn't help but notice a striking similarity with him and T-Bag, the guy from PrisonBreak.



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i have probably gained 2kg of fats by now.

i've spent the whole day eating and eating and you guessed it, eating. lunch with edwina. ed was like, "lunsh set is cheap now! only 15 bucks!" ouch, running on major deficit. kinda nice to see her after such a long time.. sad though, since two of my best frens are in smu. hah! fate. then haagen to see half my babe with lw. poor lw had to go put parking coupons like every half an hour because of us. double scoop ice cream with double toppings! they had screwed up names like desirable and devine for their menus. then to crystal jade to eat more dumplings. and back at home, still had to eat dinner. i'll be grossly obese in no time.

got my daddy's father's day gift yest. was some belt and wallet set which was freakin ex. i forgot the brand. broke like shit.

there's so many things to do. clean my room(surprise!), run more often, meet friends, study for final theory, buy presents, buy new bags and shoes, watch more dvds, clear up on np stuff and i'm still confused abt what i should do abt driving. only slightly more than 1.5 months left. i need to spend this time as carefree as i can because after this, it'll be back to the serious stuff. not looking forward to it, but i'm keeping my spirits high!

it might be a decision i will regret making but for now, it looks like the right one. i feel quite at a lost. if i hadn't gotten the smu offer, i would have just accepted my fate and gone to lead a solitude life. but, when it came to making a choice, it became so much harder than expected. it was a choice between whether i wanted to be happy in the company of good friends or get the more reputable degree with an incentive in terms of time and cost. it was like flipping a coin. one min smu the next ntu and back to smu. having nights of insomnia, with uni application always in the back of my mind. i guess now i can put it all to rest.

ntu it will be, at least for the next 3 years. what i make out of it, time will tell.

why is it that i'm never good enough for you! why do you keep reminding me that i screwed my As every time i screw something else? i'm sorry that i'm stupid and not your 4As with S papers student. i'm sorry that i keep embarrassing you in front of your friends with their scholarship holding sons and daughters.

you are all i live for. and that really hurts.

jealousy is such a horrible feeling!

why do i feel so envious when i see others doing better than me. when they have everything that I want. brains, looks, happiness. it feel terribly unfair when i see how a single exam can change your life so much!