I've never felt as rejected. I don't understand. Where did I go wrong? I'm down and defeated. It's all over!

I've got a long way to go. its time i stopped thinking i'm invincible and face up to the task ahead.

tired yes. but from watching so much tv. i need to get back to my reading materials. plus two presentations up this week. haven't run in one whole week and i'm all flab now! and i'm so ashamed after seeing those hot divers. their packed with so much muscles but i swear i can see the ass bone- or watever you call it- of some of the girls. jealous? u bet.

olympics has distracted me from work... how i wanna be a gymnast!

so the new sch year begins and i'm more perplexed than ever.. the fact that chewy is not in my class means sf and i are in trouble. lessons started already and i'm not sure what exactly to make out of them. still thinking whether to change class.. but who the hell would wanna give up the best slot with the best teacher..and i'm broke as well.. thought of buying second hand but just got a little lazy.. so there went 80 bucks on just two books.. plus i cannot stand the freshies. they come into fal and make so much noise. one bitch even stretched her arm in front of my computer to get something from her fren. HELOOOO???!!

i noe this year is gonna be so different. but i need to focus..and only on my books!

dreading the start of a new school year. oh lord,let me always have you in my heart.