my sis's com is so messed up that i cannot even open windows media player. wtf! okay, anyway, its gonna be cny and i'm so looking forward to the long break. there's so much catching up to do and we''re so screwed without a company..
so much for happy holidays!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
days of sleeping for 3 hours are back. i told myself that i would get more sleep this week but apparently thats not gonna happen. i'm trying not to lose motivation but i can see that i'm slipping from the disciplined girl i once used to be. somehow, i'm doing so many things this sem despite not having any more tuitions.
aiesec is much more draining with corporate breakfast and other events. just had elections today. personally, i understand that the whole idea and objective of having the elections. it was interesting to see how much passion the candidates had for aiesec and sometimes i wonder if i will ever have that kind of belief. right now, i think i'm not feeling anything very strong but i'm still in it because i like the idea that aiesec represents. however, i just find that many of the processes during the elections were rather inefficient. i dun wanna be mistaken to be arrogant or rude but i think that 52 speeches, no matter how inspirational dun really go into the minds of the members. there's a saturation point and after that, its s exhausting. in any case, congrats to yunzhou for winning LCP position! =)
i applied for instep on the last day. first choice uni of alberta, canada. i know the results are not gonna be out for some time but i cannot stop being excited. the thought of escaping from this mundaness and doing something totally outrageous is just too much to take in. i need a break and one to canada would be awesome. hopefully qiuqiu, yati, wuzzy and me all make it!
i'm trying out a new job. can't really say what it is for now but i'm pretty sceptical about what i'll be doing. first training in the morning and i hope its fulfilling. need to earn some cash, save for instep and for shopping. i'm horribly starved since the last thing i bought was a pair of black heels. i'm eyeing a pair of 6 inch but i think better keep that for next time.
presentation on monday and i'm feeling totally messed. my group started the project so late and somehow everyone seemed to be calm about it. its just not my style to rush everything in the last min and it was very tough working with them. i think some ground rules need to be set from the next project. azy, pls wake up!
i've been receiving more compliments about how i look these days. it feels quite mixed cuz while you feel good about yourself, it seems a little superficial that people see you as someone who's just pretty. i know how fucked i looked in my st.marg's days and to a slightly lesser extent in my ac days but at least then ppl described me as confident, passionate, etc. now, its like i count for nothing more.. and somehow it is always attached with the question, "How come you are not attached?" its right now the hardest question to answer cuz i seriously cannot figure that out. and then i came across this article on Dawn Yeoh in todays's TNP.
she said,"I don't even have time for my family, much less a boyfriend ... It actually doesn't matter if I can find a certain person attractive. What is more important is that he's attracted to me. I'm just waiting for someone to make the move first."
my sentiments exactly
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