taking bus to work in the peak hours has really reminded me why i hate living here.

a pregnant young lady is standing in a crowded 960, visibly in discomfort by the lack of a seat in the stuffy, aircon-less bus. and yet, no one, not a single one offered her a seat. wat really stumped me was the fact that they had absolutely no feeling of guilt or any sort of emotion at their action, or rather inaction. yes, high heels are hellish at 6pm in the evening. yes, i know its insanely exhausting. but isn't that poor preganant woman feeling exactly that? and wait, add a huge mass of baby load to that. the trend seems to be that its the young people with such ugly behaviour. i tot singapore was supposed to be known as a gracious society.. gracious my foot!

and today, a fucking bastard tried to molest me in the bus. and it was like in open light since i was standing in the centre. i'm not gonna go into details at wat he tried to do but it was really sad to see that everyone was just keeping quiet doing nothing when i was in obvious disress and i could bet on anything that they quite knew what was happening.

i need to get myself a car. with my own money that is. ppl keep telling me that i'm stupid for not taking up my dad's offer. but i noe i dun deserve it. no, i'm not trying to act noble and all. but really, i dun think its that classy to depend on my parents. i wun say much since quite a number of my frens are to the contrary. but watever it is, the point remains that i need to earn money. i was just thinking about all the things that i need to spend on once i start working. and it became very miserable to think abt it anymore. sighz..

on a happy note, i started to read half blood prince again. cannot wait for the movie!:)

i'm booked till the end of the week and broke to bits already.. internship pay is like peanuts and i cannot depend on it at all.. sucks totally..

hahahaha! i need to blog this because its both scary and flattering! i was walking from bugis to bencoolen yest and on the way i saw two young angmohs at bugis village. since they were just two random angmohs, without giving them any particular attention, i went on to walk through the rather smelly crowd of teenagers. as i was strolling to bencoolen, one of the guys suddenly came from the back and tapped me on the shoulder (no, he din let go). he said that he's fren (the other angmoh) likes me. as i was blasting my earphones, i was quite blur as to wat he had just said. then like 5 secs later, the other guy came up to be and out of nowehere, just put his hand around my shoulders and started introducing himself. so apparently he's george and he's from the us. he asked me my name and where i was from. though, quite taken aback, i politely answered him back (his hand is still on my shoulder). and he said that we should go somewhere and have fun throughout the night, like drink or something. i quite saw that coming and speaking in his lingo, i was like,"AWWW! I have to totally go somewhere now!" (expression: highly disappointed that i had to give it a miss.) and then, i kinda released myself from his grip and he was still trying to cajole me into going with them. i put my acting skills to work again and said bye to him by reaching out my hand. he took my hand and locked it around his and started walking as if i had said yes. so this time, i kinda pleaded to him (*put on a very sad face) to let me go, which he eventually did. so all this happened in the middle of like ten thousand pairs of eyes that looked shocked, possibly because i actually played along. ok, i admit that those two guys were kinda hot but i kinda did some rationalisation in my head and thought that i din actually need to run or scold them. they were just friendly, maybe slightly overboard for the average singaporean but i thought they were still fine. and it was not like they could do anything in that place. so when i tell my frens, they are shocked at my behaviour.. like as if i just agreed to sleep wif them! crazy ppl!

right before that had lunch with athena and lw. and damn, it was quite a morale booster to someone who was feeling so shitty at not being hit on regularly by anyone.lol. oh, i'm really happy for athena! she totally deserves to be happy and i love my babe to bits!!=)

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