I feel like a total jackass for not wishing ed off on exchange. I have no excuse at all since I wasn't the busiest person last week. I suck. period.

i have no idea wats been up with me this sem but i'm totally not bothered abt anything. i almost totally missed the add/drop (the one where there are actually vacancies) and i haven't bought books. i dun even enjoy seeing ppl anymore. i mean i never enjoyed that but its like u just wish u can run away from all of them. because they always remind you of how life's not that great! i might really go into depression. the kind that no one knows about because i'm quite crazy on the outside. or maybe, i'm just thinking too much!

I got a letter from CPF Board saying that i had insufficient funds for insurance deduction in my account. i think i only had 100 plus in my account because most of my jobs did not pay CPF. and seems that the stupid govt took all my money to pay off all sort of insurance. so in the end, all my savings have gone to paying dumb premiums for bullshit policies.its not really the money that i'm disturbed by. more of the fact on how the govt uses the apathticnature of sgporeans to push policies.

i think that i am a much more active citizen than most of the ppl around me. if this can happen to me, it can happen to any of the apathetic ppl out there and they would have no clue about it! this has always been the reason why the govt can push for dumb policies because not many pp actually care. and the outlets provided to complain are just useless and one way! you ask your minister a qsn and he gives you a standard answer or something that you've already heard before without allowing for any sort of open debate. after reading so many parliamentary debates, i have totally lost faith in all the MPs. and there are those asswipes who suck up to the govt, from newspapers to school professors! pity..

the govt will probably say that i should be lucky to be born here. i used to think so.. the govt's propaganda worked for a while but once you get older, singing national day songs won't do anymore. except for economic prosperity, i dun see things here being any different from north korea or myanmar. its not only abt money, its abt having control over your life. to be given the right to choose. not just in elections, but also when it comes to decisions that have a direct effect on you (like my CPF and whether i want to buy insurance!).

should've known..the men-in-white are just politicians after all.

i've got awesome johnny depp specs now! yay!

and i finally got to cutting a fringe! it looks pretty nice i think.. but still not complete without my pink bits.. hopefully i'll get that done by this next week!