COMM FUNDAMENTALS IS OFFICIAL OUT FO MY LIFE!!! yay!!! it was one of my worst performance and i totally screwed my written assignment but at least, i don't have to touch it till next year. but i guess this shitty grade was made up by my 30/30 for fm! FULL MARKS YEAH! ha, i've never seen full marks since like wat, sec school? haha.. was so happy! at least, i'm glad i'm not laggng behind those all As people.

i'm still broke. need money.

I'm glad this week is over. Done with fm, biz law, accounting and fm projects. Its just the group presentation next week and comm fundamentals will be officially off my life. well, at least for this year. I've been trying to seriously think of what would attract students to NBS. its not as easy as it looks. hope i dun screw it up, knowing that she's bias towards me and will grade me well if i dun suck.

driving's been pretty great too. like all of a sudden, i'm doing well and i did 3 circuit lessons in one day! can u imagine? =) i din book lessons for whole of november since it'll be like close to exams. hopefully i dun forget all the stuff.

went g2000 today to buy my suit. let me see. one blazer, 3 long sleeved shirts, 1 skirt and 1 pants. a total of $306. I was having a heartache but just consoled myself by saying that its an investment. i din wanna ask from my parents since i think they'll be having quite a huge sum (really huge sum!) of expenses this month.so, i'm broke to bits.

spare change anyone? i'll pole dance if you want!

i thought it was right..

oh wells, i'm still feeling blessed!

met jp,kok,xt,joel,bob n kenny for dinner at holland v just now.. we were trying to be adventurous and went for mexican food. ha, but we couldn't read anything and we just randomly chose the food. but it was rather good. and then we went to nydc for mudpie.. yummy! the guys were just pissing us off with army talks.. and jp and xt kept telling me how sad their life was in nus. i think i should be glad that at least i have some people i can talk to.

i have strangely began watching rugby and man do i love it! its like football but well, more interesting i suppose. since there are more goals and more action.. i like all blacks, not because their the best but because they are distinctive and play with so much life! ha, plus the fact that i've seen the whole all blacks craze in nz before.. its 2.30am on a sunday morning now and i'm staying up watching rugby! gosh!

last week has been unexpectedly great. fm wasn't as bad as i expected. neither was IT. and oral presentation was strangely good as well. i mean, i hated it but the teacher seemed to love it..shouldn't complain i guess. acct mid terms next week. its really really impt. so i better do well since i screwed my quiz.

driving's been such a pain. i hate slopes. i absolutely cannot stop at slopes and i'm probably going to fail because of that! my lessons are going really slowly cuz i cannot drive properly on slopes. i hate slope. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slope. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slope. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slope. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slope. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slope. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes. i hate slopes.
AARRRHHHH!!!

i haven't exercised in a week. feel really fat and disgusted with myself.. i keep imagining myself with wobbly bits of fats everywhere. gosh, i have a problem!

so its schools again.. and what a way to start it when u go to class at 8.30 on a bloody monday morning and find out that your tutor is sick. 2 hours of totally doing nothing. no motivation to do work. no motivation for anything at all. accting is getting extremely annoying and fm tutorial is freaking long. plus my oral presentation on thursday. darn. i hope i dun screw it. and also, the stupid IT test is coming. what exactly are we supposed to study? no clues. its going to be acct e-learning tmr so i'm not going to bother going to school since biz law lectures are usually quite useless for me. yay! can sleep until late!!!

on other news, something rather unusual happened under my block today. basically, all the residents in blk 544 jelapang road decided to gather near the void deck and give petition against the proposed child care centre that is going to be built there. i have no qualms about any childcare centre but the issue for me was one of safety. cuz the construction took up the whole void deck and there was no shelter to walk under. we had to walk outside the pathway, always in fear of death by a bamboo pole or potted plant. it was like the first time i ever saw the residents so united over a cause. some even suggested building the childcare centre on top of the multi storey carpark. what exactly were they thinking? the minister, who happens to be our mp also came and i guess was quite overwhelmed by the size of the crowd. there were even policemen there. and the minister was pretty rational and seemed to make sense. he was pretty humble and even apologised for not informing residents earlier about the childcare centre. so now, we have to wait while he assesses the situation and sees if our void deck is really the best place for a childcare centre. it was quite sad to see the rc chairman getting some blame from the residents. i dun think they should really complain given the fact that they only are concerned when it affects them directly and leave the rest of the dirty work to the rc. if they want to make some changes, join rc lah! but seriously, its pretty disturbing to see how selfish some singaporeans are. they care only about themselves and don't bother even when they see others in misery. from the public transport i take in the morning to the queues at the foodcourt at night, there's absolutely no courtesy among singaporeans. they shove you aside and slam the door in your face like you're invisible. the young people pretend to sleep or just dun even bother to give up their seats when they see a mother wth her small kids or a really old women. it just makes me so disgusted and is seemingly adding to my list of reasons on why i should migrate to somewhere else.

kok is giving another attempt at a gathering. yeah, when koks fly! i do wanna meet them. its so sian in school that you just need to hang out with people outside schoolso as to not feel the stress. haiz. what's happening?

can't believe its recess already.. though it feels nothing like it.. i've like two free days in the whole week.. gee, that's really great.. there are like major so many things going on now, i can't keep pace with everything. and its been way too many incidents to write.. nah, i'm just lazy.. bleah.. but yeah, i'm still feeling things are getting a whole lot better now. just in general i suppose. maybe it comes with accepting that this is how things are gonna be from now.


rite now, i need time to study.

I"M SUCH AN UNPRODUCTIVE FAT SLOB!!

even though i said i wouldn't go for atc, i just simply couldn't resist it. kept thinking about it from wednesaday, with leong woon constantly bugging me to come for campfire.. so i ponned IT in the morning (no regrets!) to pack and went for comm fundamentals just to get the damn attendance. then had to endure the long ride from boon lay to changi village. damn lucky for me, as i was at the jetty rite beofre they took off. if not i would have had to wait for like 45 mins!

pretty strange since there wasn't like anyone i knew down there.. most were the newbies and it felt wierd talking to them, since many had that cold, fierce look. sometimes, it was hard to determine whether they were younger or older than me.. haha..there were like five old birds including me. so, quite sad lah. can see that the standard had dropped and it took a lot to prevent ourselves from interfering too much, since at the end of the day it was their planning. but, i guess overall, no major screw ups, pretty decent.


had been talking to sok fang before that, cuz she was trying to convince me to become ho. i had thought abt it, given serious consideration but after the camp, i've realised that its not for me. it feels restrictive being an officer, allowing the cis to get into the real action and just watching from afar. maybe i'll go back, unit and area.. but as a ci, not a ho.

and so left with lw in the morning, he had lessons and i had driving. so sad for him, cuz after he had rushed like crazy, found that got no lesson.. haha.. so, guess i was the only one who benefitted--> free ride from him!=) got some barcadi breezer from cheers as they were having a discount. and the stupid saleswomen thought i was underage. rushed for driving once i reached home. pretty boring since we were just rounding bukit batok like another gazillion times and my instructor din really teach much. once i returned home, finished the discove finance project and took a nap, which turned out to be for 18 hours! haha, feel super high right now.

finished biz law hmwk pretty fast and now, need to do accounting. and got quiz next week.. so its back to mugger mode..

i'm glad i feel happier!=)

finished my stage 1 at last! was pretty smooth in the roads, other than the two times i stalled after panicking over i have no idea wat. has been a really tiring week. sleeping for 3-4 hours a day is really taking the toll on my body. mum's been trying to make me take supplements. she's going nuts! i need a serious break. work keeps piling more and more every week. running is my only medicine and it feels really great.

tmr's atc. and i'll be stuck in school. how i wish i could be there. then again, i can only wish.

seems to have so many things on these days. driving, tuition, cca on top of all the crazy amount of work that i have. i'm lost in fm and accounting's not any better. i'd probably start crying if it weren't for business law. biz law is great. maybe if there was some specialisation in biz law, i'll take it.. hmm is there one? i seem to have almost zero social life nowadays. ntu ppl dun have the habit of going out after lessons(unless you stay in hall).. so its quite boring, almost like a routine. go to school, study, come back home. gosh! i need more to life.. seriously!!! on a better note, i'll be meeting yvon tmr to go for a jog.. i really really need to run.. have to maintain stamina. and did i mention ntu gym is a piece of junkshit? there's no air con in the weights room and the cardio is just filled with guys who stare at you, thinking you came to the wrong place. and the weights are just crammed everywhere. it looks really like a dumpster, for all the rusting and unwanted weights. grrrz...


also, date with my babes on fri.. thank god for that!

just more and more work.. i'm starting to slack a bit and thats quite scary. have to use these weekend to catch up. now, seems like i'd prefer afternoon lessons seeing that all cca starts after 5.30pm.. so i have to spend a lot of time in the library.. i think its quite a good place to study actually.. just quite a pain having to walk from south spine all the way to north. today was union day. stupil shit. we still had lessons because the teacher din let us skip. i wonder how much she thought we'll be missing in a wasteful lesson like comm fundamentals. crazy i say! met petrina for lunch. had a pretty good chat. feels good to have ppl who still think of you even after going each other's own seperate ways. and after class, went for hip hop fusion with yvonne. haha, it was seriously hilarious! i cannot dance and my attempts at trying to do a body wave kept failing terribly. need to practise my steps man..but still, its pretty cool.


yesterday, managed to drive on public roads. i was freaking quite a bit cuz it seemed a bit fast to hit the roads, seeing i never even had a proper signalling lesson. but it turned out quite alrite. i stalled the engine like 3 times in the road and was super slow at starting the car. must practice finding the biting point. my test is like on 4 jan. so i dun think need to rush thru now. ha, driving is fun.. rather addictive.

Its great to have fri as a free day. ucan really make use of the time to catch up with things u weren't able to do that week. i had my first driving prac today. i noe, its abit late. ha.. wasn't too bad.. just that i've to make sure i never wear running shoes. couldn't feel any of the pedals.. it was like guess work. completed 3 lessons so, can book my test date next lesson. yipee!! then headed for the gym. its much more peaceful in the morning. i think i'm still losing weight even though i'm doing more weights. i'm slightly more than 45, and thats not supposed to be the case. ha, just hope i dun turn unhealthy. and have you realised, its been raining forever these days. esp whenever i forget to bring my umbrella. sianz. there's so much tutorials and reading to do. better get started...

haha. yay! at last. typing this entry using my very own notebook. woohooooz! i think i'm adapting to sch. its not the happiest place to be but i'll survive. there's already projects and assignments. i've been trying to be a serious nerd and study. pretty proud of myself so far since i've done every tutorial and read every chapter that has been taught. *proud smiling face stares into the screen. i just hope everything goes by well and i can get a good honours. hard work it will be but with faith, anything is possible.

i think i like business. =)

i have no idea why but i've been mugging like crazy for the past few days. i had holiday from thurs to sun and i've been doing work like almost 80% of the time. what is wrong with me?

financial statements are such a pain. my eyes have been wandering around them for three hours now. and i've FINALLY finished my accounting 1 tutorial. real accomplishment i must say. so ntu's alrite i guess. ppl aren't that cheena or boring. but haven't really made any frens. just hanging on to old ones (very few indeed) and trying to make new. hasn't been all easy since i can't really find ppl of the same frequency. i just tell myself that the days of ac and st.marg's are long gone. =( so, i hang out with random ppl in tutorial group and make my way around uni in solitude. i dun see why its necessary to tug someone around for everything.

am i afraid to be lonely? not anymore. i think

i'm scared.

NTU Freshmen Welcome went as i had expected it to. speech after speech before they had some performances. and somehow, i think i prefer the speeches at ac. it made more sense and it felt close to the heart. NTU seems pretty cold, with no one really bothering about each other, everyone just being comfortable with their own selves. maybe its because its just the beginning but i expect things to improve. slightly depressing was the fact, that i saw zero good looking guys. no kiddings. not many girls were lookers too. most of them had a sian, nerdy look and that makes me pretty worried. plus the fact that i saw 4 ac girls. the only one who i knew being my classmate. seriously, where do these ppl come from??

now, i can't decide between a Fujitsu Lifebook S6410U and a Lenovo Thinkpad X61. i want to order by monday. anyone wants to help me decide?

only a few days left to sch. have been trying to get stuff but like i'm clueless at times. cuz i dunno how big a bag i should get and what kind of clothes to buy. but still, i'll be going shopping tmr!=)